I had another horrible dream…It was all going well at the time, I found myself in a relationship. I fell for this beautiful blond girl. We had something like chemistry and we were living together. We were happy. She was smart really smart and we had met through school. She was just finishing and i was just starting up again. We had gotten a new place but things started feeling weird I could feel her feelings for me and they weren’t good. She started to resent me and my past. I could feel her pushing away and it sucked because i think i started to fall for her. I knew even though everything was fine now i could see her leaving me soon. It was the worst feeling of impending doom during a temporary moment of happiness. Why can’t i just sleep? Why does my brain have to be a downer even when i’m trying to sleep? Super frustrating…Of all the times to just escape and get a fresh start i expect is when you sleep and get a full nights rest instead i get i barrage of symbolism and negativity from my subconscious mind trying to invade my sleep with reminders of how much i hate myself and my life at the moment. really?!! thanks brain!